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Nov. 23rd, 2008

DANGEROUS!!

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Hmm, I was just thinking that maybe I should be sleeping? Haha.
Anyway...last time I wrote in here I was rather upset--unhappy with life WEEELL guess what? NOOT ANYMORE!!
Things are looking up...
I'm single, workin at Macys still. Got a promotion...going back to school-2 more classes!!
theen applying to ucla and other colleges to transfer and get these other degrees under my belt ;D
hehe well just wanted to make a quuuick update.

Oct. 20th, 2008

right opinion

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I hate being so weak. I dont understand why I allowed myself to care so deeply for someone who had no interest in caring for me. Especially after such a good time Friday after I got off work-it is those times that he keeps me stringing along.

Aug. 5th, 2008

dance

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i made this entry to express how scared i am about having him do something to hurt me again. he goes out all the time. meets plenty of girls and could easily get their number and just hurt me all over again. im so scared. i dont want it to happen...i really care about him.

Jul. 23rd, 2008

love

Always a new lesson

They say with absence, the heart grows founder. I really and truly believe that.
For some reason, I feel that my love life has grown into something amazing. :]

Jul. 7th, 2008

dance

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You say that you are confused
what is there to be confused about?
havent i done everything in my power to give you the world?
and when i couldnt havent i done everything in my power to see to it that you are happy?
why did i have to meet you?
why did i have to get impregnated by someone of your character?
what was it that made you decide that you no longer were inlove with me?
like you ever were?

you continuously break me down
when i sit here doing all i can do for you like a part of the army serving a country made of only you.

so when you say you are confused, i fail to realize what it is you are confused about
loving someone who has done no wrong to you other than love you whole heartedly?

you sir are certainly living up to your role model, a grown unworthy 'man'.
a coward and a dependency on a vagina.
fuuck you and your confusion and WOman up!!

Jul. 6th, 2008

dance

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You are some kind of man
running away from your problems constantly
i'm more of a man than you will ever be
this lesson isn't mine but yours
you need to step it up and grow up.

Jul. 3rd, 2008

dance

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I tell you things about my life so that you wont be in the dark
so youll understand me better and be able to console me when I'm in a difficult situation.
I didn't tell you so that you could turn against me.
How dare you try and tell me that I was stupid when you did the same thing.
And its only different and makes me a bad person cuz you werent infected with the same as i?
Hmm, did I ever ask to get this?
How could i avoid it when 50% of women have it.
Infecting the world am I?
don't worry cuz i wont tell u anything else thats goin in my life
youll get your 200 a month but do you ever expect to get anything from me.
dont be mad because i have an actual future and you are sinking to the bottom
you should have thought of this all before you had kids.

so when im a successful doctor, i wont need your house full of 2nd hand smoke.

Jun. 26th, 2008

choke

I'm not saying this to shake you up, I'm just saying this to wake you up...

I went out with my boyfriend n a female friend. well i actually work at the club we went to but anyway...i was told by the chicks friend [and mine] that my bf supposedly asked for her number while we were at the club. she said she declined cuz she didnt feel comfortable but my bf supposedly called her the following day and she asked him how he got my number n she said that he said from my phone and told her not to tell me any of this. she said he invited her to a club that night....
she and i arent close, and i dont care about her friendship at all really, i just hope it is her who is lying and not him. i called him out on it and he denied it....what should i do?

Jun. 23rd, 2008

cooties

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why is it always that you say you are going to call and you never do?
why does it seem like you dont even care anymore
i actually believe you when you tell me where you are but how come u cant call me?
it just doesnt make sense

Jun. 16th, 2008

dance

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I wonder if its really worth it. Worth all the fussing and fighting, feeling unwanted and feeling like that there are so many other things you'd rather be doing then sitting by my side. Its not fair for me to love you this much and constantly fight for you to show me that you love me.

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